Entry 180; Day 427

[misterblackbird]

[Filtered from DELILAH || Unhackable]
I hate that curse. I hate and despise that curse. I hate what it does and I hate how I feel when it ends. This was at least the fourth time it's struck me and sent me back, and I hate it more each time.

At least it's over with. Apologies and thanks to everyone. I always feel ill the day after, so I won't be going out. I doubt I'll be leaving my room today.

I disappeared late yesterday, Merry, I know. I am sorry. I found someone I knew. But I'm completely exhausted and feeling a bit ill today, so I'll be around tomorrow. I did have a good time looking for your cat yesterday, though. And I did enjoy seeing everyone I'd met the times before. It's as though our younger selves remember one another in between the curses. There's panic at first, and then everyone falls together into games and trouble.

It's still one of the worst curses I've ever endured--and more that once. It was the first curse to ever strike me, I believe. I shall never get used to it. I always feel horrible the day after.

Send me a message if you've need of me. Otherwise, I'll be recovering, and waiting for the next bout. Who knows when or what that will be.

[Private to Riff || Unhackable]
Riff, I have to ask you to do something I haven't had to ask you to do for nearly seven years.

I need you to tend to my back.

He gave me new marks, Riff, yesterday, during the curse. He answered my letter and I went to him. How could I refuse to go with him the way I was yesterday? So I went. He met me in the square. You know what followed. Can I trust you to do this?--Even with the madman in you?--Yes, he's locked up, he must be-- This--this is like it was years ago. He gave me new marks last autumn, too, when he caught me--but those were almost healed by the time you found me--

They sting, Riff. They hurt.
[//end filter]

~C.

[ooc: Because Alexis-mun and I are into BDSM--are into torturing our characters--are into pain--are psychopaths-- thought it would be an interesting revisitation on canon, Cain and his father were reunited last night, a few hours before the curse ended. Father called--or answered Cain's call, rather--and Cain answered. If you know the canon, you know what happens when Papa gets a hold of little!Cain. Cain, therefore, has new lash marks on his back. The scars opened by the regression have healed over, but the ones Alexis gave him during the curse have not. He'll be moving slow for a few days and he is not coming out of his room today. No, he won't say why. He's not in the best of tempers--he's somewhere between angry and depressed at the moment.]

Comments

[ Private | Cain ]

[roseblooms.livejournal.com]

I think his arrival's given me some freedom of movement, Cain. Don't worry... if anything comes up, I'll let you know. As it stands, it would be far too suspicious of him to be keeping any contact with you at this point in time.

I just... worry that Alexis Hargreaves may already suspect where all our loyalties really lie.

[ Private | Megumi ]

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Hopefully he'll be distracted by the newcomer. We quarreled, too, so if my father suspects anything immediately, he can see the very venomous and very public messages we sent to one another. I don't like being out of contact with him, not when he's in the middle of it all, but it will have to serve.

He may very well suspect it after a while. We shall have to keep it under wraps and keep ourselves ahead of him. Don't worry: I'm planning it already. I can't rely on the two of you to do everything, you know.

[ Private | Cain ]

[roseblooms.livejournal.com]

I'm sure that could possibly be encouraged, if all goes well. And if anything, we still have the flowers.

I'd say 'don't get into trouble' but... that's hardly appropriate now, is it?

[ Private | Megumi ]

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Yes, that is true, we do still have the flowers.

At the moment, we are all in such trouble that we may never get out of it entirely. The best we can say for now, I think, is 'take care'.

[ Private | Cain ]

[roseblooms.livejournal.com]

Indeed...

But I think, with who you have around you now, you'll be just fine. Right? Let me know, if you need anything.

[ Private | Megumi ]

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I'll be fine. It's you I'm more worried about. Send me a message immediately if you need my help.

[ Private | Cain ]

[roseblooms.livejournal.com]

He can't hurt me... I will. But if I don't... don't assume I need it either, alright? I promise I'll contact you immediately if I cannot handle it.

[ Private | Megumi ]

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I'll hold you to that. Be careful.