Entry 180; Day 427

[misterblackbird]

[Filtered from DELILAH || Unhackable]
I hate that curse. I hate and despise that curse. I hate what it does and I hate how I feel when it ends. This was at least the fourth time it's struck me and sent me back, and I hate it more each time.

At least it's over with. Apologies and thanks to everyone. I always feel ill the day after, so I won't be going out. I doubt I'll be leaving my room today.

I disappeared late yesterday, Merry, I know. I am sorry. I found someone I knew. But I'm completely exhausted and feeling a bit ill today, so I'll be around tomorrow. I did have a good time looking for your cat yesterday, though. And I did enjoy seeing everyone I'd met the times before. It's as though our younger selves remember one another in between the curses. There's panic at first, and then everyone falls together into games and trouble.

It's still one of the worst curses I've ever endured--and more that once. It was the first curse to ever strike me, I believe. I shall never get used to it. I always feel horrible the day after.

Send me a message if you've need of me. Otherwise, I'll be recovering, and waiting for the next bout. Who knows when or what that will be.

[Private to Riff || Unhackable]
Riff, I have to ask you to do something I haven't had to ask you to do for nearly seven years.

I need you to tend to my back.

He gave me new marks, Riff, yesterday, during the curse. He answered my letter and I went to him. How could I refuse to go with him the way I was yesterday? So I went. He met me in the square. You know what followed. Can I trust you to do this?--Even with the madman in you?--Yes, he's locked up, he must be-- This--this is like it was years ago. He gave me new marks last autumn, too, when he caught me--but those were almost healed by the time you found me--

They sting, Riff. They hurt.
[//end filter]

~C.

[ooc: Because Alexis-mun and I are into BDSM--are into torturing our characters--are into pain--are psychopaths-- thought it would be an interesting revisitation on canon, Cain and his father were reunited last night, a few hours before the curse ended. Father called--or answered Cain's call, rather--and Cain answered. If you know the canon, you know what happens when Papa gets a hold of little!Cain. Cain, therefore, has new lash marks on his back. The scars opened by the regression have healed over, but the ones Alexis gave him during the curse have not. He'll be moving slow for a few days and he is not coming out of his room today. No, he won't say why. He's not in the best of tempers--he's somewhere between angry and depressed at the moment.]

Comments

Private || Unhackable. 2/2

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

My lord. He was just as scared as he was all those years ago, I should have known- Forgive me, if I had only followed you when you ran off... I could have protected you.

There's nothing I can do now, but tend to you and stay by your side. I will come immediately.

Private || Unhackable

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

He said he'd given you the rest of the day off--I believed him, so I didn't expect you. I thought I'd just see you in the morning and fell asleep.

Thank you, Riff.

Private || Unhackable

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

Forgive me, I won't leave you alone again, I'll stay by you for as long as you like.

Private || Unhackable 1/2

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Of course I forgive you--don't even question that. The curse confused everything.

This is too much like it was years ago. Just stay for a while.

Private || Unhackable

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I hate him, Riff. I hate him more than ever.

He had me, Riff. He caught me; I went willingly. I hate him.

Private || Unhackable

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

It is too much like it was, and I still couldn't do anything. Master Cain... Please, try to forget all that.

Private || Unhackable

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I can't. Not now, and not ever.

He gave me new marks, Riff! After I tried kill him and swore I wasn't afraid of his whip anymore. Nothing's changed.

I have to move against him--I have to do it soon.

Private || Unhackable

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

I suppose I know that, my lord.

None of that is your fault, I won't let you run off the next time - Master Cain, if you could truly be rid of him, I would give anything for that sake. I wonder if that's possible. Even I am a link to him...

Private || Unhackable

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

I can't ever truly be rid of him. He's my father. He's my blood.

But you-- You're still mine. Mine alone.

Private || Unhackable

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

... Yes, my lord.

Private || Unhackable

[misterblackbird.livejournal.com]

Good.

I'm selfish, Riff. I won't have it any other way.

Private || Unhackable

[ruined-arcana.livejournal.com]

Nor would I.