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Cain Hargreaves ([personal profile] misterblackbird) wrote2008-04-30 11:05 am

Entry 157; Day 363

The Network is fascinating today: it seems people are saying too much again. At least the zombies are gone, but we've been hit immediately afterwards with a curse. That's City timing for you, yet again. I think this one, or some variation on it, has come around before. It's one of the more tiresome ones, and requires far more mopping up after the fact than some others. That is, if things go wrong.

There's a lot to be said for tact and politeness--two of my favourite tools, or weapons, as the case may be. One can say nearly anything without lying if one knows how to go about it. But from what I've seen of the residents of the City, it seems tact is a lost art in most worlds. Granted, a curse could make one blunt, but it seems like some citizens are like that most every day. And the ones who aren't are invariably schemers.

I suppose there's a difference between being blunt and being honest. One may be a blunt liar, or one may be blunt and still keep secrets. Still, there's a fine art to simply not saying something while still being perfectly honest. It's a shame it's not a better practiced art here.

For example, I can say to you quite honestly that I have done extensive, though not entirely scientific, experiments in chemistry. I'm no chemist, but I've dabbled in it. I've also assisted the medical community of the City on a few occasions with that chemistry.

In my own world I had quite the reputation and I'm both relieved and saddened that it hasn't followed me here. I am truly and sincerely concerned for both Merry and Riff and thoughts of them occupy my mind most of the day. I am likewise concerned for the other residents of the Opera Abandoned, but mostly that they should not get themselves entangled in my confused affairs: they are my concerns and I don't want anyone else harmed by them--which makes me consider moving out of the opera house quite a bit, but the barricades and protection we've arranged for one another are far better than I could establish in a flat of my own. I miss London, but in part because I miss the amount of power I could wield there--reputations do wonders, as much as tact can. I miss the things reputation could garner me.

I have greater concerns than petty day-to-day City business. I am bound and determined to kill my father in City and trap him here. Then Merry, Riff, and I will escape back to London and abandon him here. I've had this plan for the better part of a year now. Perhaps the final battle is getting closer. I still hate the smell of roses.

I also like getting the last word, better if it's a witty one.

~C.

[ooc: He's reading the Network, hoping for an opening. Maybe someone will drop some information. Oh wait, he's cursed too, and doesn't quite realize it yet! Come ask him embarrassing questions :3 Work demands my soul soon, but I will tag as much as I can before, (during,) and after.]

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 12:04 am (UTC)(link)
He raised me, Autor! I have his blood coursing in my veins. He was my father as much as I denied it. He was a liar and a monster, but I struck him down and he was the only parent in my life!

[identity profile] freakyfanboy.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
He was your father neither by birth or in his role. He disowned you. It was only right that you should disown him.

I don't want to be harsh to you. But it doesn't make any sense to mourn for someone that wouldn't mourn for you.

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
Because he couldn't feel love doesn't mean I don't. I am not a raven, that's why I loved him.

[identity profile] freakyfanboy.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
But what about the people who actually loved you?! Don't we--don't I matter?

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
...Did I said that? Of course you all matter to me. Isn't the Raven dead?

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
It's done, Autor. I can't turn back time. He could have fought fate like I did.

[identity profile] freakyfanboy.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
I know it's done. But I hate seeing you unhappy.

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
I'm unhappy because I'm thinking about it. That's all.

[identity profile] freakyfanboy.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 03:01 am (UTC)(link)
Then think about something else. Something that makes you happy. Your prince, no doubt.

[identity profile] princess-crow.livejournal.com 2008-05-01 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
Oh. Of course.